When I was 19, I lived in York,
South Carolina and worked at a chemical plant. I would work four, twelve hour
shifts and then be off for four days before returning for another four on. Due to the way pay periods were structured,
this meant every other check included eight hours at time and a half. Chemical
Operators, even back then, get paid very well to begin ; because of this I had
more money than a single 19 year old with a head full of bad ideas really
needs. My bills were minimal and I owned my car outright, a dark blue Dodge 600
with high end tape deck and custom speakers. One day as I was on the way home
from the grocery store, something caused a gallon of milk to leak and by the
time I arrived home I had an empty jug and soaking wet floor on the passenger
side. I used a wet vac to suck it all up (or so I thought), but after a day or
so of baking in the hot Carolina sun, my car was flooded with the odor of
curdled milk. I tried to shampoo the carpet, sprinkling it baking soda,
spraying on odor neutralizer… just about everything I could think of. The sour milk smell was stubborn though and
refused to abandon its haunt, driving me to desperate measures.
I had a bottle of cherry scented air
freshener that I’d picked up at Pep Boys, the idea being that you’d depress the
pump a time or two to spay a mist which reminded me of the cherry tree in our
yard when I was growing up. At my wit’s end, I dumped the entire bottle onto
the floorboard, figuring if I couldn’t get rid of the stink then maybe I could
at least mask it. At first, that old Dodge smelled like an orchard in full
bloom; but over time the cherry and sour milk smells merged. As a result of
this, I ended up with a vehicle which always smelled like cherry yogurt.
Outside of my writer’s group, I
didn’t have any real friends to hang out with, so I made regular trips to West
Virginia to visit my cronies. Some of them would occasionally ride back with me
and spend a couple weeks visiting. It was in the middle of one of these visits
when an emergency arose and my guest had to return to the Mountain State
immediately. I was in the middle of my weekly rotation at the plant and had
just gotten home from an 8 AM to 8 PM shift, but we loaded up the car and hit
the road anyway. I made pretty decent
time, stopping only when necessary and ended up dropping my friend off around
1:30 in the morning. As soon as he was
out of the car, I turned around and headed south again.
Being a six hour drive, I knew I’d
be able to make it home in time to show up for my shift, but I was already extremely
tired. If I’d been smart, I would called off sick the next day and got some
rest… but if I’d done that, I wouldn’t have this story to tell. No, what I decided to do was drive straight
through the night, stopping only for gas and coffee. The interstate was pretty much abandoned at
this time of the morning and I thought if I took the speed limit signs as a
suggestion rather than law I could make it back in time to have a little nap
before work. To help accomplish this
goal, I also had a little baggie of yellow jackets. I popped two or three, washed them down with
strong coffee, and stepped on the accelerator.
I’m not exactly sure how fast I was
driving, but I knew it was at least 120 miles per hour. I straddled the center
line so I could take the curves without letting up on the pedal too much,
rolled down the window so I was gusted with the cool night air, and cranked the
stereo as loud as it would go. With The Misfits blaring through my speakers,
that old Dodge rocketed through the darkness and I ended up passing through the
entire state of Virginia in a mere fifteen minutes. Anytime I’d start to feel a
little drowsy, I’d pop a few more yellow jackets, drink some more coffee, and
slap my own face when straight stretches would allow. At the rate I was going, I would be able to
have more than just a nap when I got home… I would be able to get some honest
to God sleep if I played my cards right. So I kept right on taking that speed.
I couldn’t even begin to guess exactly how many I took because, in retrospect,
it seems like I was popping them like Tic Tacs.
I was still a ways outside of
Charlotte when the trip began to take its toll. My heart was hammering so hard
it felt like it was about to break my solar plexus and my breathing came in
quick, ragged pants. My hands and feet felt numb and tingly and the entire
world seemed to flicker rapidly, as if I were going through REM with my eyes
open. Despite having the windows rolled down as well as the air conditioner
blowing cold on my face, beads of sweat trickled down my forehead and that
cherry yogurt scent suddenly seemed overly sweet and nauseating.
I decided to take the next exit, get
out of the car, and stretch my legs for a bit, which was probably the best
decision I’d made since embarking on this journey. The exit I took lead to a
four lane highway with a town about five miles or so from the off-ramp. The first early morning commuters had just
started straggling along and the further I drove, the worse I felt. Knowing I’d
never make it to the town, I pulled over onto the berm, removed my seatbelt,
and opened the door.
My brain told my legs to stand. My
brain was used to being obeyed without question and my legs honestly thought
they were capable of carrying out their mission. Rather than standing, however, I sort of fell
out of the car, toppling onto the ground in such a way that half my body was
lying on the shoulder of the road and the other half was across the white
line. My brain said to push myself up with
my hands, but they had involuntarily pulled in close to my chest so it looked
as though I were doing an impression of a dying T-Rex. Furthermore, my legs had
also contracted and I was almost in a fetal position. Again and again I tried
to get my muscles to cooperate, only managing to wiggle my fingers as I rocked
back and forth on the pavement.
By this time, I was really starting
to freak out and I kept praying for one of the cars to stop and help me, but
they only made wide arcs and continued on their way. I have no way of knowing
how long I laid there, completely immobilized and only able to watch the
apathetic flow of traffic stream by as if I were nothing more than road kill… but
it felt like an eternity.
Finally, I heard a voice from behind
me, some distance away, asking if I needed an ambulance. I tried to answer. My
brain yelled , Yes! Oh God yes, please,
please, PLEASE! But my tongue felt
like it had swollen, like it filled my entire mouth, blocking both sound and
air, so I rocked back and forth more rapidly, hoping my Good Samaritan would
recognize this as non-verbal agreement.
“I’m going to call you an ambulance,
okay?”
At this point, tears began streaming
down my face and once I started crying I couldn’t stop. Snot oozed from my nose
and slid down my cheeks, road grit sticking to the mucus and tears, and even
though I wasn’t cold, I’d begun shivering so badly that the little pebbles and
stones poked and scraped at tender flesh.
Eventually the paramedics arrived.
They asked me questions to which I could only shake or nod my head by way of
reply. They took vitals, repeatedly shined little flashlights in my eyes, and
asked me to follow it without moving my head.
Can you stand?, they wanted to know.
I shook my head no, so each paramedic hooked their elbows beneath my armpits
and hoisted me up. With my arms and legs still drawn up, they carried dead
weight to the back of the ambulance and sat me down before wrapping a blanket
around my shoulders. One of them cleaned my face while the other took my vitals
again. More questions followed.
"Sir, what are you on?”
I was beginning to regain some
degree of control, so I attempted an answer.
“Theed.” I could speak again, but my
tongue still felt too large for my mouth, making me sound as if I had an
extremely bad speech impediment. The paramedics exchanged confused glances and
asked the question again.
“Theed,”
I repeated more emphatically, “mon theed.”
Somehow they correctly translated
this into I’m on speed. After a while, I was able to speak clearly
again and my muscles lost that rigor mortis-like stiffness. They asked if I
wanted to go to a hospital. I declined. So they told me there was a gas station
a couple miles up the road and I should park there and get some sleep. Part of
me was incredulous. Sleep? Sleep??? I’d eaten yellow jackets like candy, my
floorboard was littered with empty coffee cups, and they honestly expected me
to sleep?
The moment I laid down in the
backseat, however, I knew they were correct. Consciousness was a thing rapidly
speeding through a dark tunnel, the pinpoint of light at the end growing
progressively smaller as if I were rushing away from the world and into the
comforting darkness of my own head. No dreams. No
wavering between the checkpoints of wakefulness and the void. My taxed body simply
shut down to give itself time to regain strength and energy.
True story.